I’ve been fantasising today about Jamie coming to me, asking me to help him through this whole thing, being the person who picks him up…and I can’t decide how I should feel about that. Part of me just thinks, obviously it’s because I’m a good person and I want to help a friend in need, but there’s another part of me that thinks otherwise. I’m trying to push it down and ignore it but…is it possible I want to be the person to help him because I hope he’ll fall for me if I do? That’s awful isn’t it. Does that make me a bad person?